I cannot believe tomorrow is my last band competition ever. I’ve been doing marching band since I was in seventh grade and I’m all grown up now and supposed to be moving on with my life and have my shit together but everything’s pretty much a mess. I can’t believe I’m a senior and even tho the school year is only like a quarter of the way done, with the end of band season, it feels like everything’s all over. it’s scary because I have no idea what I want to do with my life and I’m so scared to take on anything because I can’t handle failure. I’m gonna miss band so fucking much. it’s engrained in my heart like its really the only thing I don’t completely suck at. it’s what I live for and there’s nothing that makes me happier and it’s all over and I’m gonna cry for probably three weeks straight starting tomorrow.
also I’m starting to get slightly sad again about life in general which scares me a lot but maybe I can catch it before it gets too bad idk lets hope for the best
goodnight guys, I love you. I hope everything is going well, and if not, you can always shoot me a message.
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